loving you is easy cause you're beautiful.

2011-10-01T23:14:00.003+08:00

EG.

i know its hard to take somebody seriously when its only been two months spent together and a month spent away from each other.

but i want you; maybe not now, maybe not soon, but i hope you'll give this a chance one day, whenever that day might come. and when it does, i'll be there to make it as magical as it possibly can be, i promise. i urge you to not give up on the idea too soon.

i know you have your demons to overcome, and i bet you miss him plenty. but don't pass on what could possibly be a good thing just because things don't seem right at the moment for anybody.

Renny always said, "good things, must wait!". i believe it applies to both you and me, as separate entities.

if you think he's worth the wait, then i hope you take it seriously and push ahead in some way. i can only pray he realises how fortunate he is, and that he takes you seriously.

and to me, i'll wait for you, my good thing. i've never felt so strongly about this, but i want to give us a go some day, and i hope you'll be there with me as well.

i miss my travel partner. and i miss thinking of new good food places to go with you. i wish i could relive that month over and over again. i wish i could make you change your mind.

yours truly,

2011-06-27T21:38:00.004+08:00

Hey you!

if you're reading this, it means that you've actually remembered, and you've found me. it took me quite awhile to recall my password and stuff. but i did eventually.

i hope you find me here, and read this EMO entry. ;p

i thoroughly enjoyed spending everyday with you, and i wish we started spending time earlier. going to the island with you was the best! and i wish for you to be back here and going places with me all over again. i've been wanting to know you better for the longest time, and phillip island was a dream come true for me :)

you're right. i want my travel partner back. i wouldn't want to travel anywhere else in Australia without you beside me! you're the best travel partner ever.

when you left today, i felt empty on my way home. i've never felt this strangely before. i thought i was going crazy.

i hope you stay on in Melbourne. i want the fun to go on and on.

i may never have the courage to say all these to you right now. i don't know if you feel the same, but this is how i feel. i've realised what a beautiful person you are, inside and out. it's been a happy two weeks for me, and i know it's the same for you. i would love to spend more time with you.

come back soon.

Leon.

2007-04-11T13:19:00.000+08:00

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2007-03-04T03:26:00.000+08:00

I am peeing here just cause i can.

So,watch me pee.

Love, J.

2007-01-08T00:55:00.000+08:00

Honey,
i must be the luckiest biatch,
in the whole wide world.

2006-12-19T04:57:00.000+08:00

you know what?
fuck this shit.

you're going down, woman.

2006-12-08T03:28:00.000+08:00

im done with trying to make things better. i really want to quit.

On a lighter note, i found out she swirls ice cream around her tongue in a very weird but suggestive way.

JSQUARE! (*insert stupid face*)

2006-11-29T17:44:00.000+08:00

Memorable Quotes from
"The Office"
The Client (2005)

Christian: [Speaking of Jan's divorce] You know, you're really brave. I mean you slit your wrist, you said, 'Look world. This is my blood, it's red, just like yours. So LOVE ME!'"

2006-11-23T23:18:00.000+08:00


we drive tonight,
and you are by my side.
We're talking about our lives,
like we've known each other forever.
the time flies by,
with the sound of your voice.
its close to paradise,
with the end surely near.
and if i could only stop the car
and hold onto you,
and never let go...
i'll never let go.
as we round the corner
to your house
you turned to me and said,
"i'll be going through withdrawl of you
for this one night we have spent."
and, i want to speak these words
but i guess i'll just bite my tongue,
and accept "someday, somehow"
as the words that we'll hang from.

and i... i don't want to speak these words.
cause i, i don't want to make things any worse.

2006-11-21T20:59:00.000+08:00

i walked into the shower today,
closed the glass door behind me.
left the faucet running,
felt good, the hot water covering my bare skin.
as the warmth engulfed my soul, i began to mumble these:

Our Father, who art in heaven,
Hallowed be thy Name.
Thy kingdom come.
Thy will be done,
on earth as it is in heaven.
Give us this day our daily bread.
And forgive us our trespasses,
As we forgive those that trespass against us.
And lead us not into temptation;
But deliver us from evil. Amen.

and i heard the Lord speak to me.
He said one word, "Faith".

Thank you, Father.

2006-11-20T00:35:00.000+08:00

i'm living a life other than my own.
or, at least i pray i could be.

2006-11-02T03:48:00.000+08:00

been having some cold nights.
chills the bones to the marrow.

2006-10-31T22:50:00.000+08:00



Can you imagine no first dance,
freeze dried romance five-hour phone conversation.
The best soy latte that you ever had and me.

2006-10-31T02:30:00.000+08:00

you make it better off somehow.

and ps: i would. anytime. =I

2006-10-29T05:14:00.000+08:00

you're tearing me apart, you really are.
saying the things you say, acting the way you do, i know we've changed.
but i've been trying too hard for too long, and each time you ignored me.
and now that we've separted, you want to start caring?

you're caring about the wrong things. i'm close to her, and she's a really great friend to have at anytime, but that doesnt mean that something's going on and you should treat her with such venom. the things you throw on your blog was really hurtful to both me, and especially to her. i know how you feel, and i know why you're upset. but you were the one who wanted this, you started the whole ball rolling. it's just too complicated now to even consider giving it another go. can we stop being so mean and try to understand that life still goes on?

i feel myself losing control.
i'm going crazy, becoming insane.
it's eating away inside of me, bit by bit,
and i'm becoming someone i vowed never to become.

2006-10-27T11:33:00.000+08:00

the past week was spectacular! spent almost everyday with the brotherhood, with the addition of a few special guests. twas really fun! bridging all over the place! at spinelli's, at iylia's, even at knee ann poly! helped take my mind off the bulging matter alot.

it's like a phase. everybody's posting emo blog entries and having emo moods. yeah maybe it's a phase, but to me, it showed me once again how we have used love to perverse our lives.

it used to be true love, where you're with the person you love and no other issue can stop that from happening. but now, many worldly things have twarted that process. things like work, stress, pressure, friends, external opinions, countless other stupid things that we allow to get in the way of what matters most. loving the person with more conditions than love alone has become a norm in our current society.

but i say, friend, if you're in love with someone right now, go for it. we've been brought up in an ugly world where we've got little or no love, but only our parent's love. if you've been fortunate enough to find your love, then pounce on it. so you have many other factors that might prevent you from going forward? go for it anyway. love has changed its meaning, its really up to you how you want to use it to enrich your lives.

i'm still waiting for my sevenfold
and i feel it drawing closer
i feel so wrong, yet so right
oh Lord, won't you let me know her?

2006-10-25T09:55:00.000+08:00


had a drive
driven by your love
but when you messed around
i lost the drive i found

thought you needed
needed someone true
but you changed your mind
or had i failed you?

wish you'd been
careful with my heart
but you tore it apart
and broke an angel's heart

the kiss was true
has to end somehow
but i am livin' proof of what love is about

2006-10-23T02:03:00.000+08:00

i haven't talked about much of me lately. my posts are usually about her. but that's gonna change a wee bit now. a post without her! (= sorry babe.
it's like two in the morn now, but all i wanna say is this:
(in no order of merit, whoever came to mind next.)

to the brothers, thank you for putting up with me and being there for me all these years. serving and bonding with you guys have been the best parts of my life.

thanks iylia, for your unwavering love and concern, and comfort and help in my worst times of trouble. you're always on the ready to give me valuable advice and i heed it every single time. you're a great listener and counsellor. my brother from another mother.

thanks ariel, for the never ending bus rides home ever since we were sixteen. you're a major support to me, and i hope i was as great a friend to you as you've been for me. my music inspirator, and funnyboy.

thanks ernest, for the countless conversations we've had about family and life. you're really the brother i never had, for all the times you and your family made me feel so at home. our problems shared over the years have really enriched us both, and i feel we should really meet up more!

thanks ronald, for being THE brother all these years, ever since i joined your class. you've never failed to loosen me up, and you really made being in 4B2 the best years i've had. there's never a boring day with you.

thanks darren, for being an inspiration. boldness plus coolness really commanded the respect i have for you. the funnyman, the one-line kia.

thanks mukund, for walking with me for the longest time. ever since we were in lower sec, up til now, you've never failed to be there for me during the most crucial-est of times, and you'll always be my oldest bud.

thanks wilson, for your never-ceasing care. even though we don't hang as much due to geographical differences, you always show me and the guys how distance is never a barrier between true brothers. for all the times you've put an arm around my shoulder and listened to me, i salute you.

thanks brendan, for coming back and giving life to this organisation. although i make insensitive remarks at times and make you feel low, you amaze me with your clamness. i'm truly sorry, but know that i'm glad we're together again since after ACjunior.

to the rest of the brothers, i haven't been able to have the chance to spend some quality time with you guys. but when we get together with every passing occasion, you guys crack me up and i hope i'll get to know you guys alot better.

Outside the brotherhood:

thanks zhen, for the countless nights over at my place, discussing everything from life to relationships to God. you've been instrumental in my spiritual growth while i'm outta church, and i thank God for this blessing i've got. there's no more words i can find to describe my gratitude.

thanks rachel, for being the bestest friend. you always call at the right time, and you've always been my little angel, shining on me when in my times of need. i look forward to your return from farfaraway, for the wait is really well worth it.

to you, for you never fail to put a smile on my face when i hear from you. you always know how to say the right things to make me smile when i'm down. you're very much my happy pill. you know why i love you so much right? you know who you are.

to you, for being there for me every single time, within a moment's notice. you've always made the time to come over and hang out when i need someone to talk to, and you've been my support many times when i feel i'm falling. i don't have to tell you how important you are to me. much love!

and to you. you may not know it, but i love serious talk with you. always looked forward to discussing crazy and random topics with you, often late into the night. you've always managed to put that extra fun into it, and i enjoy every minute of it. with your silly grin/smile that i love. and stop correcting my english. )=

2006-10-18T19:13:00.000+08:00

you know what, baby?
i just love you. (=

2006-10-18T16:30:00.000+08:00

you just left me sitting there, crying my eyes out,
after giving me that last kiss and walked away.
what did you expect? that after that, i'm outta your life for good?
well i'm gonna tell you what's going on,
FOR THE PAST YEAR AND A HALF,
MY FUCKING LIFE HAS REVOLVED AROUND YOU
EVERY FUCKING THING I DID ENDED WITH YOU
MY DAYS AND NIGHTS STARTED AND ENDED WITH YOU
AND NOW YOU THINK YOU CAN JUST PUSH THIS RELATIONSHIP AWAY
JUST COS' YOU FEEL LIKE IT?
HAVE YOU EVER CONSIDERED MY FEELINGS?
EVERY FEELING YOU HAD, I CONSIDERED
EVERY DISLIKE YOU HAD, I MADE UP FOR IT
AND EVEN NOW, I'M LETTING YOU HAVE WHAT YOU WANT AGAIN

YOU SAY YOU STILL LOVE ME? BULL.
IF YOU REALLY LOVE ME LIKE YOU CLAIM YOU DO,
YOU WOULDN'T BE TREATING ME SO COLDLY LIKE YOU DO NOW.
IF YOU TRULY MEANT WHAT YOU SAID,
YOU WOULDN'T HAVE BROKEN UP WITH ALL THESE STRINGS ATTACHED.

if you wanna avoid me, fine.
if you want me to get lost, outta your life, fine.
but don't tell me you still love me.
cos' lovers don't treat each other half the way you treat me now. period.

2006-10-14T23:59:00.000+08:00

A wise man once asked me:
what is the one true basic thing we all strive for in this life we live in?
i didn't know what to answer him, but his take on the answer was what shook me.
he said:
the one true thing we all strive for is love. whether we choose to admit it or not, through all the work and everyday life; through the hectic schedule we lead; and after all the stress that strays us away from what's important, we come home at the end of the day wanting to love, and in turn, be loved.
some of us already have the love, in many forms. some of us have yet to find this love. some of us had it, and most of us are still looking for this famed love. but as for me, i've already found my love. and i fully intend on keeping her, and letting her know each and every day that she's my love, and i'm in love. i'll go through thick and thin with her. and when she pushes me away, i'm gonna stay and be there, because she said:

"love is not a maybe thing. you know when you love someone."

but does she mean it? does she know she's in love? does she even know what love is? because if you're in love, you keep him close to your heart and mind, let alone push him away.

i wake up every morning wanting to tell you how much i need you right now.
but i can't. i'm forcing myself to deliberately avoid you. why? why do we put ourselves through this strain everyday? do you find some strange amusement in torturing us both?
we've spent seventeen long months together, and suddenly you want a life which doesnt involve me?
when we agreed to embark on this journey together nineteen months ago, we agreed to go all the way, hand in hand. we agreed because of love. we did everything because of love. i'm with you, because i love you. and you're with me because you feel the same way too.
but do you think solving this problem on your own is making you happier? are you happier now? is it significantly easier to go through the problem yourself? i want to help you solve it. i want to be your support and your friend. the power of two is always better than one. but i know you will never understand this.
i'm staying, no matter what you say. i'm gonna be here, and you know i'll never leave. i know you still think i'm stupid and foolish, but one word justifies everything i do - love.

do you know you're loving me, and being loved by me?

2006-10-05T11:50:00.000+08:00

what are we doing?

2006-10-02T23:02:00.000+08:00

All i ever needed from you
is to know you still wanted this
to see you lift a finger
to care about my happiness

i don't need your 'sorry's
i don't wanna see you cry
i just wanna feel you again
because i've been numb for too long.

happy 17th month baby

..and you thought you knew somebody.

2006-10-01T19:21:00.000+08:00

think back. and remember.
how we all used to sit around that old raintree back in that old park,
and talked about all things sweet.

we talked about the current, the past, the mundane even.
but we'd talked much about our future, because 'twas free to dream.

we'd talk about flying airplanes;
getting that car one day;
the girl of our dreams.

i walked into church one day, and i saw this fine young lady,
and i said to myself, "now i'm gonna date her someday."

i looked at my two companions with me under that raintree that day,
and wondered if we'd still be buds when a decade's past.

i looked at the merc my dad was driving back then,
and dreamt of the day he'd let me behind the wheel.

well,
that girl at church? we're close.
my two buds? one's in england, the other's out of contact.
the merc? sold.

nothing really turns out the way we planned it,
most subjects in our topics covered under that tree,
will stay in its original state, as dreams.

this world sure ain't perfect, i can vouch.
if it were, we'd have exactly what we dreamed of.

-

Now for those who're reading this now,
leave a comment. i wanna know what your dreams were,
and what you talked about under your old oak tree. (=

2006-09-28T12:57:00.000+08:00

And in the meant time, i miss you alot.
(=

2006-09-17T01:29:00.000+08:00

i love rebby! (:

2006-08-17T23:34:00.000+08:00

i was walking out with my folks this afternoon.
i was going to school. they were going to the bank.
i went to my bus stop, and they walked a path to the stop opposite mine.
a bus arrived the moment i reached my bus stop.

so as my bus passed the path they walked, i glanced over at it.
my folks were strolling on, hand in hand. and i thought,
"that's really so sweet!".
don't you think so?

so i was bus-ing it back in the opposite direction,
and just as my bus passed a road exit nearby my stop,
i caught an old couple, doing the exact same thing!
they could be about sixty? hand in hand!

i'm just very amazed : at the old couple,
who're so loving even at such an age.
i'm very proud : of my folks,
for staying together happily after all these years.

i love my parents, and i know they love me too.
i just hope they know what a great example they're setting for me.
and i want to be every bit like them when i reach their age.
me and her, whoever it may be.

i pray it'll be you, my Dear.

2006-08-12T12:14:00.000+08:00

i'm feeling terribly ill, right now.
maybe, twas the late nights.
maybe, twas the two sticks.
or maybe, i'm just love sick.
why not, you decide?

or i could just be yours?
all you have to do is show me a sign.
and our prayers will be answered.

love.

2006-08-11T19:35:00.000+08:00

pok therapy was great!
i think i can safely say it helped the both of us alot?
let's have another one real real soon kay?
but ONLY once your exams are over.
=)

much love pokpok~!

2006-08-11T06:43:00.000+08:00

Rachel Lee Rui Shi!!

i just realised that:
you have a good friend called meishi.
she's from mg.
she visited you in aussie.
all of you took many photographs.

i was friendster surfing, bored as i usually am.
found a friend's girlfriend, so was taking a look at hers.
saw in one pic, there was meishi.
and it was your good friend meishi.

was walking from plaza-sing toward paragon one night,
with a couple of my best buds.
bumped into an old friend, whom i havent seen in a long long time.
thought his girlfriend looked really familiar.
and it happened to be your good friend, meishi.

i'm sorry, i just figured it out.
the world is smaller than i initially thought it was.
gosh. sorry rach.
randomness. love! (=

2006-08-06T19:20:00.000+08:00

all you gotta do is believe.

i know we have our numerous doubts and skeptism,
but if you could only believe and be confident,
then we can weather out even the toughest of storms, together.

we fight and argue,
and disagree to every little detail that pass us by.
but i'm not going to repeat what i said, and i stand firm.
you know why i'm upset and its not for the superficial.

one sentence explains it all :
my tolerance level for you is mostly inexhaustable.

but on some days, we might just catch the bad you-and-me's.
and those are the days we gotta show more humility?
giving way a little more, could make us go a longer way.
you HAVE TO understand what i mean.

i'm sorry if :
i've got the stupid ACS attitude. i know we tend to think we're better than the rest.
and i'm sorry if i try to make you think the way i do, but sometimes i just know you're wrong. and it's then that you have to give in a little.

i'm sorry if :
you're as stubborn as a bent nail stuck in concrete. but sometimes you really have to give in a little. cause' you always fail to do that at the most crucial-est of times.
and i'm sorry if you think i'm better than you. i've said it before, and i'm gonna repeat myself for as long as i should. there's no such thing, cause' i'm like you, just a normal anybody. and that's the truth, whether you choose to believe it or just continue being stubborn.

inexhaustable love.

2006-08-05T19:19:00.000+08:00

In open fields of wild flowers
She breathes the air and flies away
She thanks her Jesus for the daisies and the roses
In no simple language
Someday she'll understand the meaning of it all

He's more than the laughter or the stars in the heavens
As close as a heartbeat or a song on her lips
Someday she'll trust Him and learn how to see Him
Someday He'll call her and she will come running
And fall in His arms, and the tears will fall down and she'll pray

I want to fall in love with You

2006-07-29T23:54:00.000+08:00

i know its my bad, and i admit it.
i know i've upset you, i really do.
i've tried really hard to talk to you but you're just not taking any.
its not a small issue, i know.
but i'll try again, and i'll keep trying til i get it right.

but what you said really made me wanna give up and not wanna try anymore.
i cried all the way home cos' of what you said.
i don't think i can/will ever forget what you said.
i know i did wrong, and it was a bad call.
but did it warrant those hurtful words?

maybe to you, it does.
looks like i was wrong all these months.
i'm sorry for wanting to try so hard.
but however hard i tried,
i will never ever tell you that our year was an error in judgement.

~~love.~~

2006-07-22T03:38:00.000+08:00

Mr. Lim Kim San

89 years.

30 Nov 1916 - 20 Jul 2006

Sing ACS Forevermore.

2006-07-11T13:23:00.000+08:00

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2006-07-02T15:59:00.000+08:00

if your life were a movie, it'd be an action-packed thriller, for you've been thrilling me since the first day i met you.

to my dear brother..
it was on no deliberate purpose, my supposed insensitivity. i guess it was abit unright, the comment i made. but it was made with heartfelt care and respect. it was not my intention to make you feel insulted, cause', as i've explained to her, i'm proud of you. for how far you've come and grown as a person. and the maturity i've seen develop in you, i'm proud to call you brother. maybe i'll talk to you more closely one day, and i apologise for not being there in recent times. just know that yesterday held no intentions of malice, and i'm sorry for being me.

love, your brother.

AC ALL THE WAY. (=

2006-06-27T23:08:00.000+08:00

i'm sorry but, i just think that if i'm willing to make compromises like that just so you feel safer, then how much are you willing to do to make ME feel safer? don't get me wrong, i do trust you, and in sertain cases, trust is enough. but when alcohol comes intoplay, especially with someone you got feelings for, then i think i'm gonna need alot more than just simple trust.

you already know how sleepy you can get just after a few sips of spirit. i've seen and heard alot more than my fair share, to know how bad it can be. and moreover, you're not an experienced drinker. so how can i trust him? i mean, to all you girls who knows him, and are reading this. do you ACTUALLY KNOW HIM WELL ENOUGH? do you ACTUALLY know nothing foolish is gonna happen once he gets influenced by alcohol? you've all known him for like, what? a year? ten months? any of you known him for more than a year? no right?

i'm just saying, you like to be honest and all. but coming back after the event has happened and being truthfully honest doesnt solve anything. you could tell me you went and drank quite abit and got sleepy/tipsy and, not being able to think due to being under the influence, and fueled by your liking toward him, and anyway, everyone else around you seems to be feeling woozy, you start to lean on/hug him abit. so yes, it happened, and you come back and be honest and say you're so sorry and crazily apologetic. but what's that gonna change? it already happened, and we cant do anything to change what had happened. so could it have been prevented? how? by not going in the first place!

i'm not saying all these happened, neither am i saying it will. but what if it does? then what are you gonna say then? i know i'm paranoid and all, but so are you when it comes to HER. and its so natural, i wouldn't even notice i'm not being me. but it's facts, and facts don't lie.

"seeing how" and "depends on circumstances" aren't answers to my questions. they're excuses, running away from the thought first, then come back to it when things are about to happen or has already happened. by then, it may be too late, so don't regret when you "see how" and "depend on the circumstances".

always love.

2006-06-07T17:02:00.000+08:00

i miss our long and mellow bus rides home;
i miss the smell of your hair whilst your head rests next to my neck;
i miss looking at your smile and feeling the sudden warmth in me;
i miss how we lay side by side, and i know i'm safe from all harm;

i miss how we danced to the lovely tunes of Tunstall;
i miss how you call back whenever we've got friction;
i miss telling you i wanna try again, and again, and again,
all because i love you so;

i, miss you.

2006-06-05T13:35:00.000+08:00

Letters to Cleo - I want you to want me

I want you to want me
I need you to need me
I'd love you to love me
I'm begging you to beg me

I want you to want me
I need you to need me
I'd love you to love me

I'll shine up my old brown shoes
I'll put on a brand new shirt
I'll get home early from work
If you say that you love me

Didn't I, didn't I, didn't I see you crying?
Oh, didn't I, didn't I, didn't I see you crying?
Feeling all alone without a friend you know you feel like dying
Oh, didn't I, didn't I, didn't I see you crying?

2006-06-05T01:21:00.000+08:00

seriously.
i think i'm going insane.
and i'm not joking this time.
my head's fooling around with me.
and i'm going nuts.
i don't know why.

omg.

2006-05-25T18:18:00.000+08:00

As ava gardner said:

The thing about true loves is you can't live with them and you can't live without them. That is very true. We fight all the time but we also get along just as brilliantly.

2006-05-07T02:39:00.000+08:00

im gonna get ahead of myself here
and say that:

i've got you, and you've got me.
he doesnt got you, but i'll get him.
i might try to make him abit less ugly,
face-reconfiguring pioneers like me.
but i'll hold mine in for now,
as he head-starts from the frontline,
doggy style.

2006-05-04T14:45:00.000+08:00

[ ] the dark
[ ] being single
[ ] being commited (not married tho)
[ ] getting married
[ ] being a parent
[ ] giving birth
[ ] being myself in front of others
[ ] open spaces
[ ] closed spaces
[ ] heights
[ ] cats
[ ] dogs
[ ] birds
[ ] spiders and/or other insects
[ ] driving or being in cars
[ ] flying
[ ] being put to sleep (anesthesia)
[ ] flowers or other plants
[ ] being touched
[ ] fire
[ ] water
[ ] the ocean
[ ] pools
[ ] failure
[ ] success
[ ] germs
[ ] thunder/lightning
[ ] frogs/toads
[ ] mice/rats
[x] jumping from high places
[ ] snow
[ ] rain
[ ] wind
[ ] cemeteries
[ ] clowns
[ ] large crowds
[ ] demons or evil
[ ] crossing bridges
[ ] death
[ ] Hell
[ ] Heaven
[ ] being robbed
[ ] being sexually assaulted
[ ] men
[ ] women
[ ] having great responsibility
[ ] doctors, including DENTISTS!
[ ] tornadoes
[ ] hurricanes
[ ] being punished
[x] diseases, including cancer and STD's
[ ] snakes
[ ] sharks
[ ] dinosaurs
[ ] Friday the 13th
[ ] poverty
[ ] ghosts
[ ] Halloween
[x] school
[ ] trains or railroads
[x] being alone
[x] losing my friends/family
[x] being blind
[x] being deaf
[ ] growing up
[ ] being murdered in my sleep

and a more personal one which i felt like adding.
[x] losing my girl

2006-05-04T02:39:00.000+08:00

Bonnie McKee



I sit alone
Dark theater watchin' the people go by
hand in hand,
everybody but me
I stay behind, watchin' the credits roll by
roll, roll, roll, right by me.



Chorus:
But I know, I won't cry,
'cause there is somebody, somebody, somebody,
waiting for me
Out in the rain.
Won't cry, not tonight 'cause there is
somebody waiting for me



I take a walk,
the streets are busy tonight,
and I am searching for you,
waiting to brush your shoulder
But I'm alone
I watch the faces roll by
Roll, roll, roll, right by me.



Chorus



How many words will go unspoken
'Til I hear knockin' upon my door.
Losing track of the nights I spend
heartbroken but tonight I know,
I won't cry no more.



I lie awake
I left the porch light on
I hope it helps you find your way
Outside, I hear the thunder roll by
Roll, roll, roll right by me



Chorus.



I stay behind, watching the credits roll by,
roll, roll, roll right by me.



please take me in again.
i've driven you away.
and i fear i'll never have you
in my arms again.
i wanna feel again.
love, baby.

2006-05-03T15:55:00.000+08:00

.. Insecurity ..

2006-04-27T12:03:00.000+08:00

i know its all different now.
and i know it aint the way it used to be.
we disagree on alot more issues now than i'd expected.
we fight more often than we should.
but come end of the day, after all that,
we're still able exchange those three magical words.
nothing beats that hon', nothing.

i'm yours.

2006-04-25T17:58:00.000+08:00

so i recently blogsurfed mildly, and i saw something worth babbling about.

i realised bloggers (you and me) like to refer to our other halves as "baby."
"...baby came over today..."
"...spoke to baby today..."
"...and baby said that..."

i know 'baby's' a cute word to assign to our loved ones, but dont you think its becoming quite overused?
i'll have to start thinking of other words to indicate my girl..
"...my bundle of youth came over today..."
"...spoke t infant today..."
"...and newborn said that..."

- i talk too much.

2006-04-17T22:35:00.000+08:00

Have you had the experience of living alone? like, purely alone? no parents around you? or, are you living that life now?

i just came back from my trip to Jakarta. (the Motherland!!)
my folks have been working in Jakarta for the past one year. they've always had businesses there, but they've more intensively moved most of their workforce over to the Motherland. business hasnt been a bed of fresh roses now, and they struggle is getting tough. so i've been pretty worried over these months, about how they're living, how they're getting on, and what has come out of this year living in Jakarta.

im pleased, really really pleased to see them living well. a two story house with marble floors and in a district not to far from town. somewhere called BSD city.

my parents work at different places so they drive two cars. my dad drives the company car and my mom uses one of my uncle's spare jeep.

they dont eat particularly well cos indonesian food is usually fried, deep-fried, super-sweetened or really fatty. they barely have time to cook, so they usually eat out, on weekdays. on certain weekdays, they dine at my uncle's place. and on weekends, they try to visit my cousin's place, and spend some rest&relax time there. they even drive up to bandung, another hilly town with lush farms and greenery, to do some shopping and sightseeing together. i'd like to think of it as, sorta like a second-honeymoon for them? :)

but my real point for sharing all these, is that, they're happy. they may not seem happy work-wise, with the stress and rushed-paced lifestyle Jakarta has, but i know they're happy. i persuaded my mom to join my dad, even though they're really worried for me cos im living alone in a flat.

but im happy cos they're happy. and they're happy cos they have each other, and nothing else matters.

we never thought of breaking up and living in such a way, but honestly, maybe this is what God wants? even though it aint what we want? i know SOME of you (you know who, you) think its a load of crap, but seriously, i think all that has happened to my immediate family in the past year has been a great eye-opener and a tremendously good experience for all of us. and it has brought us closer than before.

but every now and then, there'll be startling reports of angry mobs and nasty riots spawning all over Jakarta, so i pray for them. and to all those who've been praying for my folks and me, you know who you are. if i ever get the opportunity, i wanna thank you personally. the prayers have helped, and i know God is omniprescently with them every step that they take.

once again, i wanna say im very glad they're safe and living well.

p.s. as you know, im living alone now. so, if anyone is looking to have a mini-tiny party, look no further. also, for all those living in and around my area, it would help if you send a basket of fruits every once in awhile. ;)

haha. and i dont mean to put this last, but i really miss my Rebs. when will i see my girl again?

love.

2006-03-26T05:00:00.000+08:00

and so, you suddenly realise
everyone else seem movey moving
"why aren't ya?"
time aint friendly
constant four walls entrap me
at times breathless i feel
the hollow emptiness
that surrounds me

and you.
not helping.
no blamage.
i understand.

love.

2006-02-16T10:10:00.000+08:00

when does captivation turn into attraction?
when does attraction turn into infatuation?
when does infatuation turn into in-like?
when does in-like turn into in-love?

and, when does in-love turn into a definite eternity of yearning and need?

2005-11-24T16:25:00.000+08:00

"Coming together is the Beginning,

Keeping together is Progress,

Working together is Success."

Henry Ford

2005-10-18T03:04:00.000+08:00

why didnt somebody tell me dogs farted?!

well so, like, i was sitting here on the couch, and my rottweiler's lying on ground next to me. by some weird coincidence, his butt is facing me, but i didnt notice that at first. so here i am, watching the telly, and suddenly.. this long fart sound!! i looked around, and realised it came from his butt!

WHY THE FUCK DIDNT I KNOW DOGS FART!?

DID YOU KNOW?!

WHY THE FUCK DIDNT YOU TELL ME!?

im sorry, it was just so super weird!
i ended up just sitting there, laughing my ass off for a good minute.

ahha.. ahaa.. hah.. ah.... hah.

2005-10-16T03:18:00.000+08:00

she's my:

New Zealand lambchop,

gravy in my chap chye rice,

sweetness in my suger cane,

gravy in my hor fun,

thousand island sauce in my salad,

tar tar sauce in my fish n chips,

curry/sugar with my prata,

ba chor in my ba chor mee,

...i think you get my point.

my prayers got answered the night i met her.

thanks Father.

(special thanks to iylia and amos for the "intelligent" quotes during supper one night, and thank you ariel for the photograph)

2005-10-14T04:45:00.000+08:00

it's fourfourtyfive now, and i cant get to sleep. think my body clock's upsidedowninsideout.
yawnyawn. i need a car. more like, a truck. gonna do my advanced theory test on the eiighteenth, so i'll be one step closer to becoming a chauffeur for my girlfriend. gosh.
anyway, wonder how friday night's event will be like. indochine again. hope there aint no more gay incidents. you know what i mean right? (:

oh and the underage party at chinablack sounds real nice. i think we should really consider it. it may be alittle bitty on the expensive side, but i feel we should go down to check it out or something. *shrugs-

gonna try fading off in bed now.
love.

2005-10-13T02:29:00.000+08:00

been lazy.
sleeping, cooking, eating what i cooked..
i miss church. miss the beautiful people there.
school's been tiring. and boring, as usual.
laptop's screwing up, gotta get it fixed. know someone who can help me?
lotsa projects barricading me in. but i've been lazy to complete most of them.
folks are away half the time now. miss my momma and poppa lots.
OH and Mr Buble's in town! did i mention i wanna go see? (:

Khan: im gonna apologise for unnecessarily doing all that so deliberately. but you gotta understand my intentions. im sorry if i hurt anything, wont happen again. but remember what we talked about kay? i still love you loads as a brother iylia. (:

leeyaawn's: baby its five months already! time passes really really quick when you're having fun huh? *ahem- hee its been prolly the best 150+ days of my life! and dont ponder about what love is babe. we make love, happen. (;

2005-10-11T05:00:00.000+08:00

Haloscan commenting and trackback have been added to this blog.

2005-10-11T04:57:00.000+08:00

1. Name someone with the same birthday as you:
Mark Foo, Sec 5 in Barker now. great guy..
2. Where was your first kiss?
i seriously cant recall, was a long time ago. but the first one with my rebby's the most memorable. outside her home, half-sneaking in when her mom returned. it was so damn dark that our first attempt resulted in us banging our heads together! but the second one was less harmful.. ;)
3. Have you ever seriously vandalized someone else's property?
yup. stoned a teacher's car. it looked as if meteor rocks rained on his front hood! haha!
4. Have you ever hit someone of the opposite sex?
duuuh. all the time. (:
5. Have you ever sang in front of a large number of people?
nope. never did, never ever will.
6. Whats the first thing you notice about the opposite/same sex?
it's gotta be personality. looks are a bonus to me, but she's gotta have the character and personality. like rebby. ;)
7. What do you usually order from starbucks?
caramel frap with whip cream.
8. What is your biggest mistake:
about six months ago i made a super big mistake. but i have her now, so it aint too bad.
9. Have you ever hurt yourself on purpose?
nope. i think it's pointless. the pain wont take the problems away. at all.
1o. Say something totally random about you:
my girlfriend told me she once spat a fishball into a stranger's handbag. it was back in stnicks (pri 6). she was having recess with joanna goh and they started playing arnd. joanna spat a fishball at her, so she did the same thing in retaliation only to have the fishball fly into a hangbag of a complete stranger (some kid's mum) which joanna was sitting next to..
11. Has anyone ever said you looked like a celebrity?
yeah. i know you will NEVER believe this, but i've been told i look like jerry yen, with the curls in my hair, and sometimes hugh grant, with my long brown hair.
12. Do you still watch kiddy movies or tvshows?
the occasional powerpuffgirlies and looney toons. ;)
13. Did you have braces?
nope.
14. Are you comfortable with your height?
honestly? nope. i'd pretty much rather be at least 10 cm taller. im only 168cm now. :(
15. What is the most romantic thing someone of the opposite sex has done for you?
at eleven in the morn, while i was still snoozing. she came in, bought prata for breakfast, and joined me in bed. oh, not to forget the sweetsweet kiss that woke me up. (:
16. When do you know it's love?
when you cant go through your average-everyday without constantly being distracted by the hunger of feeling your love's heartbeat close to yours.
17. Do you speak any other languages?
uhm.. chinese, and abit of bahasa indonesia.
18. Have you ever been to a tanningsalon?
a what?
19. What magazines do you read?
fhm. maxim. PLAYBOY. ha, im kidding.
2o. Have you ever ridden in a limo?
nope, but would sure like to one day.
21. Has anyone you were really close with passed away?
not. and i hope not anytime soon either.
22. Do you watch mtv?
used to, when there was more pimp my ride, but now its just viva la bam and room raiders.
23. What's something that really annoys you?
the way ahlians and ahbengs speak. with all the "horz" and "worz" and "ish" and "MuAaAcKiIiIeZzZzXXxXx" and every other bloody word they've tainted that ends with alternate-caps "zzZZzZ" and "xXxXxxXx".
24. What's something you really like?
running. i used to do alot of it back in Barker. im really glad i've got my running buddies. thanks ariel and iylia! and the occasional ernie too! (:
25. Do you like Michael Jackson?
not in particular. its as if he's got a permenant-wedgie problem or something?
26. Can you dance?
no. that's why i prefer pubbing to clubbing.
27. What's the latest you have ever stayed up?
erm. two days without sleep? cant remember exactly when though. i must've slept for a few years after that episode.
28. Have you ever thought that you were honestly going to die?
nah, havent had an experience of this sort. got the Lord to thank for this! (:
29. Have you ever been rushed by an ambulance into the emergency room?
nope. again, thank God!
3o. Do you actually read these when other people fill them out?
sometimes, depending on who fills them out i guess. this one was on rebby's blog, and since its almost five in the morning now, and im so uber bored, hey, why not? (:

2005-09-11T02:57:00.000+08:00

to everyone,

kinda decided blogdrive kinda limits my movement, so i moved here. will update more often. oh, and thanks for changing my link at your own blogs.

love, leon. (:

loving you is easy cause you're beautiful.

Memorable Quotes from "The Office"The Client (2005)

Memorable Quotes from
"The Office"
The Client (2005)